phoenix

I wish I knew what the hell I was doing when it comes to creating this site.  I certainly fake it pretty well, but it's getting to the point where I don't want to futz with stuff because if I break it, I don't know how to fix it!  Ah well, it is what it is.  I just want to ba all fancy sometimes.

I am feeling a bit of disbelief about my life lately.  I've graduated from something.  I have earned a degree somehow.  My process lately and my ability to be open and take everything on has floored me.  I don't think I necessarily seem different to anyone, but inside, I am the Phoenix risen from the dust.  What's hard is that what was left behind was also an amazing part of my life.  I'm not running away from anything, not hiding, not belittling.  It's all so amazing and to be appreciated for what it is.  For the first time in a long time I'm running and not caring what the destination is.

faaaan-tastic

I feel fantastic.  I fell in love recently.  I fell in love with myself.  I don't think I can even describe the possibiities that has opened for me.  It has literally opened me.  I am achieving feats that I never knew were possible for myself.  I am both firmly grounded and flying high.  Such a wonderful feeling.  People tell me that I'm going to crash at some point ... maybe I will ... but what is the fun of thinking about that?  I'm soaring and the view is outstanding.  You all are welcome to join me up here ... I'll help you, just say the word.