letting go

My practice these days is letting go.  It's been a theme for the past couple months and it's taught me some invaluable lessons.  I'm learning how letting go of somethings actually brings you closer to them. 

The more I let go, the more that comes to me.  It's like the idea that by giving things away, you'll never be in need.  Same thing.  And it seems to be working.  I have all these amazing people in my life and I am experiencing this reciprocity of learning - teaching and being taught.  And when I release expectation, the experience opens more and more to me.

My yoga teacher (who rocks my world) was talking tonight about love and compassion and how she has had to learn to be excited and happy for her students when they achieve things that even she has not achieved yet - and how it lifts her higher to be in a space of truly supporting others for their successes.  This is very true for me recently.  I've had to learn how to really appreciate and cherish the success of my friends and their happiness (regardless of the jealousy and other surface emotions that may arise) and through this appreciation, I become so much more free and alive.  I gain from their gains.  It's a mysterious and marvelous thing.

so california

I’ve very much been focused on the Micro lately.  At least Macro explosions in my micro world.  Emotions are strong and vibrant and have skirted round like a feather in the wind – always aloft, and yet ever-changing.
 
My process has been strictly about the battling of demons.  I’m winning, which is great, but it seems all too addictive.  I never quite know if I over-indulge in these efforts so I can keep winning or if I’m just not done yet.  Part of me feels the pull to think of larger issues outside of myself and look at how, once again, I can be of service to my community and the planet.  These have been lost as I’ve been excavating pieces of myself.
 
I’ve been feeling more lonely amidst a treasure-chest of love and friendships which just leads me to wonder what more I am needing for fulfillment.  I think a little more “me” time is in order.
 
I’ve come to really love my astrological signs lately (as I learn more about them).  I’m a Virgo, with a Leo rising and a Scorpio moon.  This is what my friend Anitra sent me yesterday:
 
Your Scorpio moon man has some of the deepest and most passionate feelings of all the zodiac signs. He 'feels' on levels most other never experience.
When he loves he loves with an intensity and commitment that is all Encompassing ... when he hates ... he hates with totality. How he handles what he feels is dependent on many other factors in his chart with his sun, ascendant and mars being the most important significators. But although the 'actions' may be different any man with this moon experiences a level of feelings that run only from high to low with no in betweens.

Imagine living in a way that everything that was felt was absorbed at its most acute and compelling level and you will understand a little of how this
man processes the events of his life through his emotions. It isn't any wonder that he can be very slow and very watchful before he lets anyone in. A Scorpio moon will be generally very quiet about its feelings...it isn't one to vocalize and express instant attractions. This man will also tend to wrestle with his feelings...his own way to keep them under control. And control is a very important issue in one way or another to any man who owns a Scorpio Moon. Whether he has learned to control how he acts out on what he feels or whether he seeks to control the objects that he invests his
feelings into this realm is one that will be prominent in his life. There is no other sign that can provide the kind of encompassing and total
love that this moon can give.
 
I’m not saying I take astrology at 100% face value, but again and again, it hits the nail on the head. 
 
I’m sooooo California!