mmmm! snake snot

the first week of grad school has been unsettling at best. varying from the highs of being back in school to the lows of the reality of how much of my current life i have to give up in order to succeed and excel in school. at least half of the professors have done their best to scare the bejeezus into us (or out of us) about how kick-ass we're going to have to be to be able to get by and play with the big kids when we get out of school.

i feel pretty ready to do the work. already i've had my head buried in books for the past week and have gotten ahead in a couple of classes. what i am not ready for is the surgical removal of my community and social life. i feel very isolated right now and i haven't spend a lot of time with friends in the past several weeks. i miss people and i wonder how i'm ever going to be able to date. this was supposed to be the time when i broke out of my shell a bit and explored my self in non-committed relationships.

how can i date if i don't have time to meet anyone??

i feel somewhat confident that i haven't sentenced myself to two years of singledom, but right now it's looking pretty bleak. on the other hand, i really like spending time with myself, so it could be worse. if my life follows any pattern at all, i'll fall in love again in february. i seem to have three year relationships followed by a year off. that cycle has been true 2.5 times, so who's to say that it won't happen again.

i TRULY hope that some tentative ideas to live with Jill and Kendra in the spring work out, because they just KICK some serious ASS. a household of we three would be pretty unbelievably great.

in other news, at least i don't have a snake coming out my nose:
http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/040902/481/mas10109021528&e=1&ncid=1756

whatever you do, don't click on "next picture".

okay, this is a vey boring post ... i'm off to bake some cookies for bruinslair.