the simple form

all that writing/processing (below) has made the following synopsis possible:

it was a huge risk that i took getting involved with a woman who clearly spoke that she was not ready for relationship. it was motivated by a depth of love and attraction that i have not felt in a long time ... and by a quality of love that i have never felt before. and although we spoke clearly about where we were, the motivation to explore this connection caused a diffusion of clarity (and perhaps it even was diffused) that allowed me to live more fully in pursuit of this desire that somewhere after the end of her year-long exploration of intimacy, we would join more fully in relationship and share our lives together.

this exploration became highly focused on "us". there was room for space and for the creation of anything and yet we followed the path we did. perhaps it was exactly what was supposed to happen. it has taught us both a LOT about ourselves and each other. the road ahead of us is not visible. it will be created by whatever choices we continue to make.

we chose each other for a reason. i cannot say if that has been fulfilled or not. it feels like there is more to come. i believe that we have a lot more to teach and give to one another, but i really don't know. anything can happen.

i do not for one second regret this risky choice. amidst all this pain, i will continue to sing her praises.

getting back to our origins ... there is plenty of time ... what next?